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2009-11-14T20:56:00.000+08:00

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Love is a battlefield indeed

2009-11-14T05:53:00.002+08:00

I started to realised this year has been tough for most of us, and no i wasn't talking about financial problems , workload or endless amount of assignements etc
Adding to the stress level is
the fact that this is not a good year to fall in love
Kudos to those who is having great luck this year.
But browsing through blog after blogs , twitter pages after another , facebook updates.
I can say most of them is about relationship problems, love troubles etc.
Including mine

Why?
Why do we leave our hearts out in the open knowing that we will get hurt in the end?
Why do we hang on even when we know deep in ourselves that its over yet we hold on to it like no tomorrow.
Is it the rush of adrenaline that we feel everytime the person is near?
Or the fact that the feeling of being in love is just so great it cancels out any hurt or pain we have felt in the past?
Yes.
Maybe thats why we let ourselves fall in so deep , too deep.
Everyone deserves to love.
But doesn't mean we would be loved in return.

I want to know whats it like to love again.

Its like a million little stars spelling out your name

2009-11-13T18:56:00.002+08:00

I know my title doesn't really match my post? but yeah whatev.
I don't really have much to blog honestly. I feel like each day is the exact same.
I need new'ness , something to look forward to everyday
something to get me out of bed and not worry how i will deal with today.

I just realized on Thursday when im really down in the dumps i actually want to do work to distract me from feeling anything .

Its not alright, but it will do for now.

Rain baby rain

2009-11-12T18:14:00.004+08:00

who needs a man when you got friends who cheers you up by laughing at people running in the rain.

P.s : Thank you for today Filz and Hanis (:
Love you

<3>

I love the way you make my world go round

2009-11-08T18:30:00.002+08:00

I finally got about to watching
'hes just not that into you'
and it sort of make sense, how when we were young we were fed useless information about how if a guy picks on you he likes you when in reality maybe he just hates your guts and enjoy seeing you in pain.

i could be wrong

Anyways , spending the night at college was pretty fun except everyone except Asyraf was emo'ed that night , Hanis had her problems and Esther had her problems, and I had my problems , funny thing is we all had the same problems.

I have no mood to blog.

bye.

This is cupcakes

2009-11-06T02:38:00.001+08:00

Baby this is for you <3

2009-11-03T21:15:00.003+08:00

I can't exactly express myself so so greatly, but i can through words.
So i dunno, im just honestly sick and tired of seeing time after time my dearest friend getting hurt having to listen to her lust after a guy who clearly isn't matured enough to have a LDR.

LDR= long distance relationship

The fact that i could be completely wrong about his thoughts, views and opinions but from what i heard and know i dont need to eventhough you should listen to both sides of the story.
I try to like him, i try to think that hey maybe he aint so bad, coz i like a guy who my friends weren't really fond of yet i told them that i still think hes a good guy and something about him just makes my tummy roll about like a washing machine whenever hes near.
But yeah liking my friends boy is a impossible task. Now you must be thinking, its none of your fucking business, get a life. yeah well 'helllooooo' once you tell someone about any of your problems it basically becomes your business so yeah 'gtfobitemebitchthxbai'
So yeah i got alot of attitude but if you knew why , you'd know.

Im just saying why are guys or most guys so fucking clueless?
Are you only aware of your surroundings when you have someone riding you like a mechanical bull?
i don't understand this, why tell your girlfriend's super close friend a secret and expect her not to tell your girlfriend is a stupid thing. obviously she will, doesn't take a genius to figure that out. duh.

The fact that they think just coz she aint around its ok to fuck about.
Well its not, shes not your Plan B or your 'haicomefuckmenow' buddy.
she happens to be the most amazing girlfriend.
Understanding not to mention, someone who can handle your juvenile bullshit.
Consider yourself lucky buddy.

and to my girlfriend (you know who you are)
I love you and is always on your side no matter what
For all the tears you have shed coz of him
For all those times he upsetted you
For all those times he made you feel like shit
and all those times he sucked as a boyfriend..

Just remember , you have will always have awesome friends who would do wonders to his fucking face if we could. You know that ;)

Love you
xoxo

You saw the mess in me

2009-11-01T13:45:00.002+08:00

Saving up money to buy a brand new acoustic guitar.

In other news, nothing interesting has happened, basically same old shit different day. Give me something exciting to look out for.
I drown myself in watching episodes after episodes of Gossip Girl , keeps me occupied ,either that or focus on assignments.

I'll go doodle now.

xx

"My baby he don’t act like himself no more
he lost that smile I used to adore"

I think its safe to say .

2009-10-28T02:17:00.004+08:00

And today im officially missing you.

Usual mornings behind the alley

2009-10-27T00:41:00.004+08:00

Reasons why i love coffee

1. Coffee is hot
2. Coffee makes me excited
3. Coffee is good enough to have everyday
4. Coffee smells good
5. Coffee makes you nervous sometimes
6. Coffee gives you a warm & fuzzy feeling
7. Even when coffee is too strong or too weak, its still good.

Reasons why i like you

1. Pretty much the same as coffee
2. You keep me up all night wanting more.

xx

Its hard to be lovers but harder to be friends

2009-10-24T18:34:00.002+08:00

Haven't been feeling well these past few weeks, i don't know, stress from assignments i guess.
So i know i will probably regret it later but im craving for holidays, as this holiday has sorta been planed out, basically parties , parties and hopefully going to the beach with the lovelies.

I orderd 2 tops from some online boutique which has very reasonable prices, unfortunately in order to purchase something you need to order at least 10 items.
Yeah. sucks but i think the prices are pretty darn good, so how bout share the 10 items with a friend and order together?
Thats what me and Esther plan to do.

im bored now

im thinking about cutting my hair short
tired of the long style already.

xx

Unmotivated

2009-10-13T00:26:00.004+08:00

Honestly i feel so unmotivated to do my assignments, like i think i have dived head first into this pit of never ending despair. Im stuck and i can't get out. I try , but i fail.

I always hated posted emo'ish post as viewers who read it will be all

'god! not another emo wannabe'

since im one of those people, but blogspot doesn't have one of those private protected post so my emo pitiful post shall be out in the open for any unsuspecting viewers to read.

Recently stress has been building up and i feel like im the most happiest when im in college with my friends. I laugh , smile , giggle like no tomorrow, then when the day ends i start creeping back into my own world. My mom told me today and it seriously made me feel so scared , apparently as you get older your organs don't work as well as they did 30 years ago, so mom was in the car and she need to go pee so badly and she was stuck in jam, that she started shivering and almost passing out, while she was driving!

Im so blessed that god was on her side.

I still sort-of think about you.

Baby, back off

2009-10-11T22:05:00.004+08:00

There are 5 stages of Grief
But they look different on all of us.

Denial . Anger . Bargaining . Depression . Acceptance

-Greys Anatomy

Who doesn't love to make collages of themselves in silly expressions?

I know i do (:

Not a good day indeed

2009-10-11T03:14:00.004+08:00

My horoscope lied to me today, it says i shall have a good day but it ended being pretty much a shit day right from the afternoon till late at night. So the new PC arrived today and pretty much everything is fine , BUT the fucking internet wasn't working, figure us girls have no idea how to set up the internet, so dad got all pissy and started getting all worked up. He then gets all fired up saying how we are 'fucking stubborn' emphasis on the 'fucking', coz we didn't want to make a fool out ourselves and call the Dell people, since this isn't really their problem, but dad and his very strange logic expects us to just call, in the end? we didn't so apparently today was also the day dad and mum goes to visit grandma since she just came out of surgery, another BUT we couldn't find the sensor for the gate and yes that got even more pissed of and started yelling, throwing fuck words here and there, i was utterly humiliated because im sure the neighbours must be thinking,

what the fuck is going on?

So yeah in the end we manage to find one of them but the other apparently got either

1) stolen

2) crushed

Dad likes to put the sensor on the hood of my car and my mum i guess forgotten to check and drove the car anyways, so it must have dropped somewhere, we manage to find a part of it but the other parts is yet to be found. So dad was pretty much pissed off the whole day.

Yup. Today was a shit day, and worse is, i didn't get much work done today. Sometimes i feel like its so hard living here with a uptight dad, like seriously,my dad is one in a million, you will never find another dad who has his attitude and thinking. Eventhough some hurtful things were said towards us hes still my dad and i love him no doubt about that.

Eventhough i have a little party in my head when he goes of for business trips i can't help but feel a little guilty. I just feel maybe pity that probably most of the people who met him hates him coz of his lousy attitude, even his own family can't tolerate him at times. Honestly i feel so suffocated when hes around too long and i feel when hes not here i tend to go a little wild. I party the night away, drink as much booze as i can possible drink go out as much as i can etc

Sigh

I shall be a better daughter and person from now on.

Mojo'less

2009-10-10T01:35:00.003+08:00

My blogging mojo has officially left the building.

I shall stop watching Gossip Girl and do my Design Communication assignment.

Ta.

FYI

who doesn't love Ed Westwick a.k.a Chuck Bass

*swoooon*

Who reads my junk ?

2009-10-07T19:45:00.004+08:00

I wonder who reads my blog.
hm

anyways today we were 'suppose' to complete assigments but because of Miyumi she wanted to play pool we went to Asia Cafe and played pool. Then we went over to pyramid to shisha at Tarbush? or something. Shisha wasn't really that good but hey its better then nothing right?
Miyumi got a little buzzed later and i recorded videos <3

Theres no other way to better say

2009-10-06T00:13:00.003+08:00

I shall be seeing the lovelies tomorrow, plus i will be having lunch with Negar.
Can't wait, to be honest this will probably be the first time having lunch with her and ive already been in Sunway for several months.
I have no motivation to blog , nothing really interesting is happening in my life at the moment.
Im thinking about new ink, i just need the cash and the design.

Im feeling very 'blah' today. Coz daddy has been very annoying these past few days.

p.s
I don't care about my ego right now, i shall just go right ahead and say it and boost up your stupid huge ass ego and make you feel all good about yourself.

I miss you stupid !
very much.

xx

Thats how we do it.

2009-10-05T18:13:00.003+08:00

I miss you bestfriend
:(

you said forever and always , I dont think so yeah

2009-10-02T18:18:00.004+08:00

Oh, I stare at the phone, he still hasnt called
and then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
and you flashback to when we said forever and always

and it rains in your bedroom
everything is wrong
it rains when youre here and it rains when youre gone

cause I was there when you said forever and always
you didnt mean it baby, you said forever and always
I dont think so yeah

Seasons are changing and waves are crashing

2009-10-01T23:31:00.002+08:00

Today was quite an interesting day , we headed to shah alam to check out this art shop which sells stuff at students budget so we don't have to burn a hole in our wallets. Before that me , Filz , Hanis and Miyumi went to Asia Cafe for some pool with Miyumi's friend.
Before that we encountered a little incident , apparently there was a minor accident and lets just say the guy was literally getting either pissed off or about to shit his pants as 3 girls were pretty much fucking him up on the phone, but i realised that it wasn't really his fault, feels bad about it but whats done is done.

Note to self : Be nicer .

Smile

2009-09-30T20:56:00.001+08:00

The power of a smile can do wonders.

This heart, it beats, beats for only you

2009-09-30T02:01:00.005+08:00

This will be the last time.

Hurt me, piss me off , tell me everything you told me was just a lie , tell me things will never ever work out , say you were just pretending all along , tell me im a complicated prick , ignore me , don't say a word , hate me cause im anything but perfect , abandon what used to be good , tell yourself it was not worth the time , say you can do so much better , tell your friends im a hopeless desperate bitch , tell me how you can never accept me for me, pretend i wasn't there when you clearly saw me , tell yourself i was never serious enough to carry your emotional baggage .

but when it comes down to it.

Yes , it hurts so much you can't imagine.
but

I can definitely do so much better without you.

xx

Esthers latest post of Justice

2009-09-28T21:22:00.003+08:00

So Esthers latest blog post is about snatch thieves and it somehow inspired me to blog a little or alot on this subject. We all know about them, heard about them ,read about them and even witnessed them. Unfortunately not many people can do anything about it or wants to do anything about it and anyone of us can be a victim.
These son of a bitches should have their balls roasted, sliced and diced and stuffed down their throats. Living in this generation is so dangerous nowadays you can even get robbed or raped just walking to the shop across the street. Honestly im just wondering, are these savages really that lazy? i mean if they can use up energy to get on a bike and lurke on unsuspecting victims and rob them, risking their lives of getting caught beaten up and jailed when all they can do is really very simple, so simple
GET A JOB!
Im sure even with their lack of intelligence , probably due to their undeveloped brain they can somehow contribute to society and earn money the correct way. I mean how do they sleep knowing they just killed a person or more just to support their addiction to god knows what.
Anyhoo, nowadays snatch thievies and smashing car windows when the car is staioned at a traffic light or at the side of the road etc. Mainly because most women tend to place their hand bags on the car seat attracting those undeveloped fuckheads.
So ladies avoid making this mistake by putting your bags under the seat or somewhere hidden.

I got this from a forum site.

“After waiting for about five minutes, two youths on a motorcycle rode past us and made a U-turn to approach my car. We did not suspect anything amiss, thinking that they were visiting my friend’s brother, but, to our horror, they smashed the car window and snatched my friend’s handbag.
“Everything happened in the blink of an eye and my friend also suffered minor cuts from the shattered glass. The incident has left me paranoid whenever I am driving, especially at night or at traffic light junctions.
“I learned the hard way that even though I was in my car, it is still not safe,” she said.
She also related another incident that happened to a friend, who was attacked while driving her child home. Not only did the crooks took her valuables, they even stabbed the toddler in in the thigh before zooming off!

HONESTLY was that necessary??

Another even more bolder move is :

A couple of men would be waiting inside a car looking for their next victim and most of the time we walk by cars without noticing people happen to be in them, so just as the woman is walking by the car, the man would emerge from the which everside of the window the woman happen to be passing by grab her bag and the driver would slowly drive off. There is no choice but to let the bag go and those brutal bastards would just drive off slowly as its impossible for the woman to out run a car.

They may be undeveloped but they sure can come up with smart tactics to rob people.
Seriously i wish i was a dude at times.

Fuckers

Just cause their life is over doesn't mean they gotta take someone else life away.
but thats the ugly fucked up truth.
Hopefully they believe in karma.

what comes around goes around

It's the beat that my heart skips when I'm with you

2009-09-28T18:13:00.002+08:00

Class resume today an as usual mondays class is always boring.
Anyways after class Me, Filz and Hanis headed off to Pyramid for some girl time, haven't been to pyramid in ages with them. We ate at Secret Recipe, the amount of cheese the put on the mac and cheese, no doubt it was delicious eventhough i wasn't able to finish, but it did burn a hole in my wallet, i feel broke.
I will get a job during the holidays which is kazillion days away but i plan to work at a pet saloon, fortunately theres one nearby leisure mall.
Can't wait :)

p.s : I feel the need to dance

xx

Pop those bottles and shake that ass

2009-09-28T01:39:00.007+08:00

So recently i went to MOS, sort of a tradition everytime Sam gets back from Aussie, i forgotten how fun it is, im proud of myself that i deprived myself from going clubbing for almost 6 months.
Amazing.
Anyhoo , it was infact a very fun night, sadly it had to end a tad bit early since everyone was leaving and or tired, but nevertheless it was a fun night full of booze and dancing till your feet hurt. We didnt get Sam super drunk like we planned but she did get high indeed. ;)

xoxo

p.s : im not sure why the picture quality is so shit, must be blogpsot
fuck.

Its not a big deal

2009-09-21T19:37:00.004+08:00

I don't understand the reason why dad has to make a big deal out of absolutely nothing. Basically i went out with Sam, Becs, Negar and Chern and the family too went out for dinner and i presume they were on the way home since they called to ask if i was still in Pyramid or not but i was wrong so i came home earlier then they did and thought meh, ill just wait in the neighbours house since they politely asked if i wanted to wait inside.
Dad gets all bitchy coz he and the neighbour are no longer on good term.s and he apparently doesn't wanna "owe him any favours" , Singaporeans are so 'kiasu' sometimes. I mean seriously WHAT IS THE BIG DEAL?
Not like i went against his wishes or whatever, all i did was come home earlier then they did.
Please someone point out what i did which is against the parents law.
Dads Answer: I didn't call
Ok so if i did call i would still have to wait at Sams place for them to pick me up, whats the difference of waiting at Sams place then a house next to mine?

Sometimes it gets so frustrating having to abide by his anal ways, i mean i know parents do weird shit and make up stupid rules to protect us from the outside world and any bodily harm but im not 10, i can cross the road without having to hold your hand or have you check up on me 24/7 . Yes i do know that the world is a dangerous place where rapist , child molesters , kidnappers , murderers, psychopath , pedophiles etc lurk among every corner, but thing is, we are not going to live forever, true there are a 1000 things in one day that can kill you but thats how life is.
I know i sound like the typical rebelious teenager who just wants to have fun, but i do analyze the situation and maybe in my eyes i believe i didn't do anything wrong, but since im studying and using up dads money i have to be under his daddy radar.
At this age we are suppose to have fun, fall in love, get dumped, get pissed drunk, party all night, make all sorts of mistakes we will later on regret, but the best part about being young is that eventhough we make mistakes and do crazy shit each of those regrets and crazy ass moments makes us who we will be in the future.
Can you imagine if all of us were holy sister marys? like little catholic school girls/boys, following every rule and not going out of line? even the parents would get bored. They only make up these silly rules is because when they were young they did crazy shit as well, probably crazier .
Maybe i don't get it coz im young and modernised , let me tell you something, we are suppose to mess things up, get in trouble etc
why?
Coz we're young, you cant exactly continue your legacy of being the wildest drunk who walks around on his hands till he/she passes out when you're 35. We will all soon retire from the messed up fun party world when we realise we need to stop fucking around and get serious, and right now it isn't the time, yet.
So do what you have to do before its too late.

Cheers.

Im ready to bust a move

2009-09-20T18:28:00.002+08:00

Lately i realized that i spend most of time at college then i do at home, and when im not in college i feel like should be in college with my people. I won't be seeing anyone for a whole entire week, and i think there are assignments due after the Hari Raya break but im not sure, i need to call Hanis up. She knows everything (: . Currently i have been eating alot lately, i just had a light lunch and 5 pieces of bread with tuna and mayo. I love tuna and mayo. Im thinking about cooking up so Bacon or Sausages with cheese cubes innit, but i hate cooking.
I need to exercise, im starting to feel really fat.

Did i tell you that our ID 1 presentation went horribly? for everyone actually. I mean i think for out very first group project in which she didn't really teach us anything turned out pretty darn good. True we didn't put in our 110% but we did work hard on it and i would say that everyone did a good job on their bus stop.

FYI : I really really feel like having some pastries right now.

I wanna see the sunrise

2009-09-20T00:25:00.002+08:00

Dad is planning to move the whole family nearer to sunway, that way it would be alot easier for us to go to college instead of having to go through the jam everyday, plus did i tell you i fell asleep at the wheel?! and i was certain i banged into the side beam, but apparently there was no scratches or dents, lucky me (:

Anyways it is officially Hari Raya.
Happy Hari Raya everyone :)

The whole of next week is a holiday, not really excited though, i prefer going to college honestly coz at least i have something to do rather then stay at home and do nothing.

Im bored now.
bai.

To love me even when you hate me

2009-09-15T01:15:00.003+08:00

I think the writers of Greys Anatomy come up with the most meaningful lines that most people can relate to or makes viewers go "hey thats a pretty good quote" . Anyways i just finished watching Season 5 of GA , waiting for next season to air. Currently waiting for desperate housewives and ugly betty as well. So today was a very tiring yet sort-of fun day, we basically spent most of our time in my car driving to Taylors and around taylors looking for a print shop that would print A2 size. No luck. I shall go around asking some of the seniors, maybe they would know.

I will fill my blog with pretty pictures and lovey dovey or happy'ish quotes.

By jane-addiction (DA)
Come with me
This could be
The only chance we get
We gotta take it

The ship is sinking, i gotta swim for it

2009-09-13T03:22:00.004+08:00

I have many assignments to do, and i rather watch tv series ,dramas and movies. I can't stop, its addictive, like a fat boy wanting more chocolate cake. Which reminds me i have been having weird cravings, today i craved for cupcakes, and muffins and cake and late at night fried chick.
The other day i was hanging out with Hanis and Filz and they were basically trying to cheer me up and eventhough i felt bad in the pits of my stomach i couldn't stop laughing, so later me and filz went outside Orange to check out some worthy candidates for me, or at least worthy to Filz since she or everyone thinks i have the worse taste.

10 more minutes till episode 3 of 1 litre of tears.

I like cute guys who makes my heart flutter
<3
"We all have one. That first boy or girl who made your heart melt. The one you wanted to give your most cherished toy to simply because they made you feel so good and you wanted to do the same for them in return. No matter how old we get and where life takes us, we always hold a special place in our hearts for our first love."

heart shape bruises

2009-09-07T22:05:00.002+08:00

My internet is back to normal, i don't have to reply on the shitty maxis broadband because its a piece of poo. I prefer streamyx any day eventhough it can get really fucked up at times. I need to buy an external hard drive, it saddens me to see my computer space decreasing day by day as i continue to download more and more. I hate staying at home, there is absolutely nothing to do , besides using my laptop and not-doing-assignments.

I downloaded a bunch of songs which i can't stop listening to. and my dad thinks im watching porn everytime he see me watching a movie on my lappie. and he doesn't call them porn he calls them 'X Films' . Dads -.-
I would like to get a camera , seeing all the pretty photos on DA makes me want to get a camera and take photos like mad.

Check it , by =iNeedChemicalX

Im stuck on a boy
Who fills me with joy

xx

Making love on the backseat of your car

2009-09-06T15:47:00.004+08:00

Nobody reads my blog these days, i like it so i don't have to constantly update like mad to please my viewers. The only person who reads my blog or is allowed to read my blog is Esther. Anyways, so far this weekend i have manage to finish up zero assignments. I have to complete my Name Model, Furniture Design and our group project 'bus stop design'.
Fun. Can't wait to get started.
I hate my new class schedule, it sucks big time because the only days which are free is Monday and Tuesday . Friday has no class which leaves Wednesday to start in the afternoon and Thursday to start from morning and end at 5. I miss semester 1 where i had morning classes and the rest of the day was spent with my lovelies at pyramid or in studio L webcamming.

FYI: I need a new table

xx

L to the O to the L

2009-09-01T01:00:00.002+08:00

i was totally bored and decided to just google whatever pops into my head and this is what i came across. I don't agree with every single thing though.

Reasons Why Men Suck!
1. They make you want them over and over again, and each time they hurt you like before
2. Just b/c it "feels right" means its ok. They completely forget about your feelings too.
3. They make you want them over and over again, and each time they hurt you like before
4. Male pattern baldness
5. The geniuses tell your best friend secrets and expect them not to tell you
6. When they’re w/ their girlfriend they look at other girls
7. Scratch "their stuff" every 15 minutes
8. Everything they do is a competition
9. Toilet seat....terrible aim......got the picture?
10. Um, hi my eyes are up here, stop staring at my chest
11. They just can't be satisfied w/ one female
12. They don't take no for an answer
13. They’re hairy
14. Take advantage when you’re most vulernable
15. Think they could get anyone they wanted
16. Love and leave
17. Tell every friend how far they've gotten w/ you, or lie about how far they've gotten with you
18. If they just break up w/ a girl.... 5 min later their already jumping on another one
19. They say they'll call.... but never do
20. Go after girls that are all hoochified but when you dress like that they make you cover up
21. They let what their friends have to say impact them so much, it influences the decisions they make about everything
22. When they make you cry they think its funny
23. They feel "trapped"
24. MENopause, MENstruation... etc.....
25. Men think its never the right time to talk about the relationship
26. No matter how many clothes are in their wardrobe they always wear the same thing
27. Men dont know when you want them to lie

28. Break up with you the day before your anniversary
29. Promise things that they know they can't keep or intend on not keeping
30. Like making fun of you when you do something wrong, as if they do everything perfectly all the time
31. Think beer, partying, and girls are the best things on earth
32. One word: cheap!(not all are but from our experiences...)
33. Its not QUALITY that matters to them, but QUANTITY
34. Don't like to share they're feelings
35. Believe that women belong in the kitchen
36. After a couple months of dating they don't act sweet or try to impress you anymore
37. Act totally different towards you when they are with their friends
38. Most guys eat whatever they want and don't gain a pound, its so annoying
39. They don't know how to say sorry when they do something wrong and learn to stop doing it
40. They don't take no for an answer
41. They can't settle down. Its like they have to spread their seed to everyone.
42. Their ebonics
43. Pants are 4 sizes too big
44. We must not forget their manly tales about stupid stuff they probably never did
45. They think a smack on the butt and "you'll get 'em next time" is an appropriate way to end a four year relationship
46. They think unhooking a woman's bra with one hand is a talent
47. They will cheat on you if given half a chance, and then blame it on the girl
48. It's okay, even encouraged for a guy to be a slut
49. They never call when you want them to, or when they say they will
50. They are obsessed with their penises
51. After making love, they get up and raid the fridge...and the cynics say romance is dead
52. They will eat mysterious food, originating deep within the bowels of the fridge, as long as it doesn't "smell too bad"
53. They're all looking for a "nice, funny, smart girl" who just happens to look like Pamela Anderson and has the libido of a rabbit
54. Lesbian and catholic schoolgirl fetishes

despite the 54 reasons why men suck, im still rooting for the penis side (:
<3

Letting go takes love

2009-08-25T00:47:00.002+08:00

To let go does not mean to stop caring,
it means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off,
it's the realization I can't control another.
To let go is not to enable,
but allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means
the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try to change or blame another,
it's to make the most of myself.
To let go is not to care for,
but to care about.
To let go is not to fix,
but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their destinies.
To let go is not to be protective,
it's to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny,
but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold or argue,
but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.
To let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.

To let go is to fear less and love more
and
To let go and to let God, is to find peace !
Remember: The time to love is short

Kudos to the Author , twas a beautiful piece

Im just tripping

2009-08-23T21:13:00.002+08:00

I was told i was beautiful
but what does that mean to you

xx

Ain't nothing gonna get to my flow

2009-08-19T18:26:00.002+08:00

I just realize or actually i already realized it earlier but just not wanting to admit the fact that i can be happy, i just choose not be. Im like a dark cloud always thinking of the negatives, never being optimistic about anything, which is why my relationships always fail or why i can never be happy. Ok so yes its my fault that i never cared enough or never commit enough, and also i may be a little old fashion where i expect the guy to do everything, or almost everything. why because i don't want to feel like the boyfriend, yes i know i can't expect him to do everything then its like whats the point of being in a relationship. But its not like i don't want to show that i care, is just that i can't. I feel stupid and silly. Even if someone says 'you really like him don't you' i feel lame to get involve in this puppy love nonsense. You can say i have commitment issues and probably i do from pass experiences with jerky no good boyfriends.
I guess i can always be the one to do everything first , 'cause i damn right can, but the thing is im tired of wasting my time and feelings for a guy who doesn't want me as much as i want them.
and maybe the guy is exactly like me except a male version and hes probably thinking the same thing. I wouldn't know 'cause, i wait and wait and wait, eventually it will blow off and i move on, and he move on, we could have had something good but 'cause none of us are making a move nothing happens which totally sucks all because theres a lack of communication going on.
I need a kick in the ass or to grow a pair of balls, i lack guts and straightforward characteristics which i need. I can't think now, my head is filled with stupid thoughts of him and also whats for dinner tonight and how will class be tomorrow.

I shall go to my corner and be sad

Fun in the mo'fukin sun

2009-08-18T17:52:00.011+08:00

College just started yesterday and we didnt really do much, learnt about building construction and AutoCad. Anyways today was quite a fun and unpredictable day, i spent it with Hanis , at first i was suppose to go and meet Thao and the others for ice-skating but i couldn't make it since i had to do some assignments but after i was done Vinod called to say it was cancelled so i ended up taking one whole round around sunway with Hanis, we then stopped at Sunway Hospital for starbucks, walked around to find the toilet and surau, instead of the usual sunway pyramid, although tomorrow since we have an afternoon class i might just spend it with Hanis and others who might tag along, doing god knows what.

Also i haven't uploaded pictures from the sort-of-not-really-picnic at KLCC park, with Hanis, Esther and Ziggy. We took tons and tons of pictures :D

Im not exactly sure why the quality of the pictures came out so shit -.-

love you guys !

Excited ?

2009-08-08T01:26:00.002+08:00

In exactly 10hours i will be seeing my homies who i have not seen in ages besides hanis, well it would be just me Hanis and Esther, Filz is still in Brunei :( . Anyways we shall be having a picnic, not really those picnic-picnics, pretty much we are just getting starbucks and mcdonalds and heading to the klcc park and sitting on the grass and eating, being one with mother nature.
In other news, i have this urge to watch this malay/indo movie called 'Heart' ? apparently its really sad and a chick flick romantic movie, which is why i want to watch it. Coz its sad and typical love triangle movie. Im such a chick. If my internet wasn't so shit i would have been able to download it just like that *snap* . Unfortunately its sucks. Oh did i mention i was able to go on facebook and ebuddy on my phone? yes its such an amazing thing because i was able to figure it out and best thing is, theres not charge because im using the maxis broadband simcard, so yay me, although i don't really use it since i have my lappie lol.

anyways im off to bed now.
Ta

Im just a little caught in the middle

2009-08-05T23:56:00.002+08:00

maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
baby there wouldn't be a simple thing we couldn't do

I have no more fight left

2009-08-05T01:27:00.006+08:00

I hate the fact that blogspot doesn't have one of those password protected post, or maybe it does but im just stupid and can't set it on a protected post. Whatever , its not like anyone actually reads my blog right? I don't have any fight left in me to fight off everyday problems life has to throw at me. Im weak probably a pussy who can't handle shit i admit, and no im not creating 'fake drama', i would love to have fake drama to make my life so interesting it could be made in to a series, its probably my hormones talking here.
Im so confused out of my mind and its fucked up coz this has happened so often im honestly sick of it. Its like crossing the damn finish line but taking a huge step backwards. I don't get where i went wrong, well i will find out sooner or later when i actually gather up my courage or grow a pair of balls to just ask. I feel like having a picnic, enjoy what nature has to offer, blow some bubbles and lay in the grass which is what i will be doing with Hanis and Esther on saturday if its on, hopefully it is, im so tired of staying at home.
I want to cry so badly but i can't, maybe im dehydrated.
Im gonna go watch tv or eat.
yay for technology.

p.s you are still a jerk and a tool , grow a pair of balls and face me

The truth will set you free.
amen.

btw this just made my day
;)

Wouldn't it be nice?

2009-08-04T00:35:00.002+08:00

Lately i've been having those mood swings where i just don't feel like doing anything besides, eat , go on neopets or sleep. Holiday is almost ending and i haven't finish that damn layout i promised everyone i would, i still i have the App layout to go , and eventhough they are laid back and ask me to take my time, i really really want to get this done but im procrastinating as usual.
Anyways i havent been doing any cardio exercises and i would do some tomorrow, i have to , lose all those holidays fats that have been builiding up. Oh did i mention, i bought bubbles the other day with Vinod and it made my day , eventhough people looked at me like i was retarded, but its cool, i had Vinod for backup :D .
Im not sure why im feeling shitty, or maybe i do know but just don't want to admit it. I really feel like going for a run now but its like 1:18am , i need a treadmill , i doubt daddy would buy one and even if we did we wouldnt have a place to put it. Im planning to secretly get a membership at the gym nearby college secreatly as dad and mum thinks its pointless going to the gym at this age, mainly coz they think its a waste of money but really, if you look good, you feel good, vice versa. *thumbsup*

Iforgotten how comfy pjs are <3
and i found my new facebook picture

xx

Who put the glad in gladiator?

2009-07-31T16:43:00.002+08:00

I just got back from Becca's place, and a day with my chicks Vinod , Claire and Hanif. We spent the afternoon in the cc playing left4dead also most of the time we were having trouble connecting to a game and when the game is working just fine, i had to leave. Becca's housewarming party was pretty fun, i met some not-your-typical-ACCA-sunway-peoples :D . Then we started talking about pickup lines, and im itching to do the 'Wanna see a firework display' pickup-line. I shall try it on hanis when i see her. Honestly guys, pickup lines do not work 100% of the time, well unless the girl has a really weird sense of humour or is totally wasted, frankly i love pickup lines , makes me laugh like mad. lol .
Its so hot lately that i have no mood to burn calories, i was suppose to take Milo for a walk but ended up not doing it since it was hot and i was a tad bit lazy.
btw
Does anyone have any chick flicks ? i would gladly love to borrow to waste my holiday away .

xx

Lets get high on poptarts

2009-07-29T00:20:00.003+08:00

As you all know i recently have a new phone and im dying to know how i can go on facebook or blog or msn with it, first things first, how do i even connect it to the net. Im a dumbass when it comes to tech stuff, which is why guy friends are important, they help you with the tech'y stuff. I used to be able to connect and even go on youtube with my old motorola phone unfortunately it would hang or freeze everytime i go on it too long. Im excited about thursday as ill be going over to Becca's place for her housewarming and best thing of all is, she has starbucks near her place :D isn't it grand? Also on Friday ill be seeing my chicks, Vinod and Claire <3 i miss them. Thats the only thing i can look forward to. I miss taking photos, so on Thursday and Friday i shall go wild with my camera, that is if i don't forget to bring it.. as usual.

Im getting hungry, i shall go search the kitchen for something edible to eat.

p.s my sisters solar powered bobbing head snowman is creeping me out.

Ta

Minus Calories

2009-07-27T18:01:00.001+08:00

I burned 127 calories today.
I feel almost lighter now

Ta.

Another sleepless night

2009-07-26T03:11:00.003+08:00

I just got off the phone with Vinod who was giving me 'the talk' with the problems i've been having lately. And it did make me feel a tad bit better, he always knows how to cheer me up (: , Anyways i've come to realized i do things without thinking and i end up hurting someone i never meant to hurt. I regretted doing alot of things and if i could go back in time and change what i did, i probably would have. Eventhough they say 'You learn from your mistakes' , i just can't accept it. I do admit im not the nicest being you would come across and sometimes its better not to give a shit. I know you're probably thinking "geez, get over yourself already" well no i wont, im going to whine about my pathetic problems until i cant whine any longer. I feel like having some ice blended caramel cream and a ciggerette . Also i've been debating whether i should get a haircut, or a trim atleast. Maybe chop it off till its at shoulder length or even shorter? nah. I look like poo in short hair. Bad times. There are times i wish i lived in a condo with a balcony so i could sneak a smoke or two when i can't sleep. Im getting really addicted to the facebook application games especially 'barn buddy' . And i always gave the 'what-the-fuck' face when my friends tell me they go on facebook just for the games.
Im getting sleepy now and i think i might just try to fall asleep once again.
I hope when i wake up today it would be a good day.

Homies

2009-07-25T20:12:00.005+08:00

This is the reason why i enjoy college (:

I miss my homies , seriously i want college to start so i have a reason to get out of the house and see my chicks. Im craving for starbucks now, ice blended caramel cream, stupid Cliff doesn't appreciate having starbucks near his place, what a waste. The nearest Starbucks is like 15minutes away... by car, and i can't be assed to drive also dad is here and he start complaining about petrol or whatever. Im excited about next week, being able to see Queeny and Becca, and probably going over to her place to keep her company which means Starbucks :D . Also i will be able to meet up with Clarissa and Vinod for some girl and girl talk, and yes Vinod if you are reading this, you are a chick. ;) Im gonna miss our random conversations on the telephone, seriously i cannot have the conversation we have with anyone else. I shall miss you my silly little chick when you leave to the UK pretending to be all British. Silly little chick ;)

I think i shall give him a call now.

Ta.
xx

Sleep Deprived

2009-07-25T04:48:00.000+08:00

Im not sure wth im doing up this late , i went to bed at about 2.30am and now its 4:24am. I havent been able to sleep , maybe its due to the bowl of tom yam i had. I can feel it digesting.
Maybe im just overly excited about upcoming events. Im looking through heaps of photos on facebook which is taking forever due to the crappy internet maxis broadband has to offer although the services can kiss my if-i-were-a-guy balls, eventhough they promised us customers good internet and download speed. what a piece of poo!

I shall try and sleep now
goodnight.

Freshie

2009-07-24T23:45:00.000+08:00

So changed to blogspot instead of starting in xanga because everything is so limited and the pretty layouts looks so shit in xanga because i cant hide some things. Anyways recently i havent been updating as there is nothing to blog about, oh there is one thing actually, daddy just got me a new phone and its pretty in white. Also i haven't been going out as much as i would have , i don't really have the mood to club at the moment. Well , i shall go cook something.

Pretty isn't it?

xx